Mindy_1011

Before I was a Mom
I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed...I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday...

Before I was a Mom
Icleaned my house each day... I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby...I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous... I never thought about immunizations...

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on...Or Peed on... I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts... I slept all night...

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...Or give shots... I never looked into teary eyes and cried...I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin... I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep...

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down...I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt... I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much... I never knew that I could love someone so much. ..I never knew I would love being a Mom...

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body..I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby..I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child...I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important...

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay... I had never known The warmth..The joy..The love...The heartache...The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom... I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much...

...Before I was a Mom...

^*You walked into my Life,When my world was dark and cold,
You held out your arms, And my heart and soul you did hold*^

^*You promised you would never leave, That you would always be there,
I never knew that I meant so much,That my heart was worth enough to care*^

^*You showed me so many things, I started to dream of you every night,
You melted the coldness in my heart, With the warmth of your light*^

^*I ended up falling for you, How could I not -
You're an Angel in disguise, And every touch from you makes my soul hot*^

^*But then you told me it's not the same. For you only think of me as a friend,I cannot understand this, The wrong messages you did send*^

^*I never knew you bought your friend flowers, and touched them like a lover,I never knew you held your friends hand and caressed them under the covers*^

^*I am so far, I cannot turn back now, You are My Best friend,
So what do I do now. I don't know much, Except here I am again
in Love with another man who only wants to be my friend*^

^*I'm not sure if this is wrong, Then again I don't know what's right,
I will Love You Anyways, Even if its a lonely fight*^

^*^I appear whole on the outside...But within I am so broken...
There's a piece of me that's been missing....
My other half, my voice of reason^*^

^*^I try to clap but there's only one hand...I try to run, but with one leg I dare not stand...My eyes are open, but I cannot see...
Because my other half is not next to me^*^

*^I reach out at nights but there's no one to hold...I touch your side of bed and it feels so cold...I sit down to a meal but I can barely eat...
Because the purpose of sharing has faced defeat^*^

^*^But I have faith that one day complete I will be...'Cause my other half is out there searching for me...If only for a moment I can get him next to me...
I will make sure my other half fits me perfectly^*^

 *^Sitting in the dark..Moonbeams on my face
The arrow hit its mark
Feeling so alone..feel so out of place..*^
^*Desperately seeking answers but no one to ask..
Life now sems to be an ill-burdened task..
Helplessly wearing my heart on my sleeve..
Constantly praying that this pain would soon leave..*^
^*Drops of Sadness falling from my eyes..
Broken dreams covering the blackened skies..
Wanting to run so far..Far away
Wishing that Oblivion would greet the dawning day..*^ 
^*Thinking back on the time gone by..
Wondering exactly where things went awry..
Detesting that I just could not see..
That I am the one who brought this affliction upon me..*^
^*Desiring so much to just move on..
Wanting so badly for the pain to be gone..
Hoping endlessly that I could just forget you..
Realizing at last..Nothing you said was ever true..*^
^*Quietly questioning why it had to be me..
Did I really deserve your cold cruelty?
Sitting alone with my thoughts tearing me apart..
Why did you aim your arrow straight at my heart?

...My love for you is an endless feeling...Too hard to describe...It has too much meaning...

 


...from the ups and downs to the sarcastic smiles...
Our happiness is like a river that goes on for miles...

...Our attitude’s clash worries fuel our rage...
Think of it as a book simply turn to the next page...

...If our future unites us makes us stronger in time...
We must worktogether as a team we will shine... 

...We have to remember that trust is the key...
It needs to be earned because nothing is free...

...Through the thick and the thin i am sure we will find...
That alone we are nothing together...We are one of a kind...