I’m tired. And emotional. And I can’t stop thinking about those people in the dark without power and the ones that haven’t been found —— I think about how selfish some people can be. Seeing the devastation is something nobody should have to see but also something everyone should see…. I saw glimpses and it has shook my world, , if we all had a face to face view then maybe we could be more humble & appreciative. Myself I literally felt like I was suffocating No words can describe the feeling , and to top it off , later today I got some take out and a man was mad over ketchup. Ketchup.......his freakin day ruined over a pack of ketchup. I wanted to lose my mind on him. But then I thought, we ( people in general) act like that every single day. We take things for granted. We want more and more and more. We. We. We. I said to myself “the people in NC they lost everything” but I was wrong. They lost so so much. They lost a lot. Not just material things they lost family friends pets photos of loved, their homes , things they worked their whole lives for,, memories of a place they had known their entire lives GONE But the ones I saw today, they still had hope in their eyes.They had a smile on their face They had a smile on their face and they still had thankfulness and hope in their hearts regardless of what they had went through today they were thankful.. I just keep thinking about Psalms. “The lord is close to the broken hearted” I was going to try and do some work some tonight but I’m exhausted. And I literally want to reply to people with sn remarks about they had time to get out, with “at least you aren't in body bags” you have a home you have your families... but I’m going on two hours of sleep and not in the mindset to do anything but sleep. And its over thinking , emotions and lack of sleep doing the talking , that's not the person I am to say something like that... Everytime I even start to close my eyes I see things and todays trip. I sat in the truck tonight in my driveway about a half hour thinking and asking God “why did you want me to go there…why... this is going to hurt me forever”….. but I know he had a purpose and plan in it. And in that plan I trust him.. Tell people you love them.. Hold them close, mend old hurts, let go of petty things in the past , and just be thankful you have a 2nd chance to make those mends, to get those 2nd chances at a relationship with those lost to you and your families, I know things happen every single day that could cause each and everyone of us not to get that 2nd chance to make things right, but ya'll I'm telling you its God telling us make things right , do better treat people better trust in him and he's not playing around , Look around its the entire world falling to pieces from natural disasters to leaders running our Country, its full of lies deceit, corruption of morals and what we were built on, it's all being destroyed by idiots and crazy ideas more by the day of people making it up as they go, God made no mistakes he made 2 genders , Our world is falling apart before our eyes and if that doesn't make you think then I'm sorry you are part of the problem and not part of the solution,..Pray is all I can say , for whatever is on your mind just pray,
