I do not know if any of you will like this blog or not but sometimes when things are bugging you it is good to put it in writing to get it off your chest so you can think about more important things.
It is so frustrating when you try to get away from things that stress you out only to have new things take their place. Take tonight for instance I got a call this evening telling me my brother had a heart attack. I was looking for a way to occupy my mind while I wait for the doctor to decide how bad it was. I went in to play some pool. BIG MISTAKE. It was not nearly as relaxing as I had hoped it would be. I ended up in 3 games running at one time and if that was not stressful enough one of the people I played not only tried to lie their way into a win they tried to make it look like I was the one that was lying. I decided when my chest started hurting I should just let them have it if they wanted the win that bad, and get some distance so I could calm myself down. There is a bitter irony to the fact the thing you are doing to relax makes you more stressed out.
Another thing that is frustrating is the obsession people seem to have with who I am. It should come as no surprise to anyone that Demona is not my real name. I mean seriously who would do that to a child? I picked the name because it went with my league id and the league itself better then my real name. The fascinating thing is now many people who know it is me think it is important to tell me they know. And what is more interesting is the few people I actually told it was me at least one of them has been telling people it was me even after saying they would not. Why do people say they will keep things to themselves when they have no intention of doing so? There was a time in this country I am told that people were as good as their word. A time when trust was one of the most important things someone could have. I wish those days still existed. Life would be so much easier someone told you something and you would know it was true without a doubt. That would especially come in handy when someone said they love you or that they have your back or that they will always be there for you.
